why is it just a week and all's back to square one? i really dont get it. no one does, no one will. except God.
sometimes when days like these come.. you feel so dry, you feel you wanna cry, then you wonder why.. you realise & notice the people around you, the circumstance, the situation. you sit back and reflect. it's not as if i dont know God has a plan for my life. but it's just days like these i just wanna break down. cos you feel so empty, so consumed.
urgh.. it's just hard to describe. i'm.. so tired of loving the one(s) i love. so tired of trying to please them, to do things for them they're not even thankful for. argh. i think i have some mental disorder. perhaps i do. diagnose me please, someone.
i think im going mad. but im trying hard to smile wherever i go.
im so sick of life.
it's so hard living this life that belongs to God.
im not a bloody thing, so stop toying around with my feelings. i'd much appreciate it. urgh.
on a lighter note, my last day of work was on sat! ohboy was i relieved, but yet i felt as if i betrayed my colleagues. i was just so tired of waking up so early each morning, working for 11 hours a day. going home so shagged and all. then the vicious cycle repeats again. but i've made really good friends there, sze yan and jenny. always be embedded in my hearts (: maybe im just feeling emo, but i think i love them. ohwells..
argh. i dont know wth im saying here.
ohwells. towned with char for awhile after church today. then had to go airport for family dinner. hmms, swensens after that! =D sent uncle lip off then here i am.
wells, joce, lydia, char & i stayed over at Swissotel the night before! (: the scenery's damn nice from our room. that was how i spent my night after my last day of work.
so much pretense, take it off.
i hatelove.
and that's the story of the heart; at 2:15 AM
Monday, January 29, 2007
why is it just a week and all's back to square one? i really dont get it. no one does, no one will. except God.
sometimes when days like these come.. you feel so dry, you feel you wanna cry, then you wonder why.. you realise & notice the people around you, the circumstance, the situation. you sit back and reflect. it's not as if i dont know God has a plan for my life. but it's just days like these i just wanna break down. cos you feel so empty, so consumed.
urgh.. it's just hard to describe. i'm.. so tired of loving the one(s) i love. so tired of trying to please them, to do things for them they're not even thankful for. argh. i think i have some mental disorder. perhaps i do. diagnose me please, someone.
i think im going mad. but im trying hard to smile wherever i go.
im so sick of life.
it's so hard living this life that belongs to God.
im not a bloody thing, so stop toying around with my feelings. i'd much appreciate it. urgh.
on a lighter note, my last day of work was on sat! ohboy was i relieved, but yet i felt as if i betrayed my colleagues. i was just so tired of waking up so early each morning, working for 11 hours a day. going home so shagged and all. then the vicious cycle repeats again. but i've made really good friends there, sze yan and jenny. always be embedded in my hearts (: maybe im just feeling emo, but i think i love them. ohwells..
argh. i dont know wth im saying here.
ohwells. towned with char for awhile after church today. then had to go airport for family dinner. hmms, swensens after that! =D sent uncle lip off then here i am.
wells, joce, lydia, char & i stayed over at Swissotel the night before! (: the scenery's damn nice from our room. that was how i spent my night after my last day of work.
so much pretense, take it off.
i hatelove.
and the story ends like this; at 2:15 AM
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