im at a sudden lost for words.'ve been thinking so much, especially ever since yesterday..cant get you off my mind baby.sigh..i miss your voice, i miss your everything.guess a lot has changed over these recent weeks..for the better or not, im not certain.im so confused at this point in time,really dont know what i want in life.at least i used to know.. but now im just, lost.perhaps it's the people around me that's moulding my perspective.it's like.. oh are you free? no, i have golf.and that's the case 85% of the time la.sigh. at least now, i see some hope in the program that's gonna be set up for next year, with more goals and plans. it's gonna work, im gonna improve more than ever.it's gonna be the best training from when i entered slga.next week onwards it's training from mon-fri.wanna know the schedule?wake up at 545, go run at 645, at Bedok reservoir.. hmm.with Said! at least he's running with us. hahathen have breakfast,and then head down to laguna for a round of golf..followed by training till about 6pm.erm, that's not inclusive of my own training.like swimming, gym etc. ohwell. so the schedule i came up with for myself is gone to waste.hahas. it's okay i guess. i hope this schedule is better..at least it includes the mental, physical and most aspects of.. golf.interesting.. it's kinda pointless talking to someone who knows nuts about golf.woops =X that means, you guys! hahaat least there's no training on weekends.BUT, i still have training on sat mornings. hahathen i'll go for a swim or something.eeks. i kinda hate myself.for whatever reason..hmm. i gotta go let go on the piano later..and write my diary.oh yeah. i actually managed to run 5.1 km in 1/2 hour yesterday!after such a long time of lay off.. not bad!ran with sx in the gym. lol doing it again tomorrow.we gotta do well for the marathon! ahhs. talking about that. i really dread december.because there's A math test. on the 1st.gosh guess what? i havent even opened my book.or flipped a single page of anything.God bless me..perhaps i'll just drop A math.even though it's kinda essential and useful.i shall stick to my liking and stop getting restrained because of what others think.that's a weak point in me.unless i choose to be stuck up and pissed.i guess things have been better with my parents,at least i think i control my temper better these days,especially after the melbourne trip.. taught me to respect everything.hmm. i really wanna go full into golf.but not really getting full support from anyone,namely my parents and friends..sigh-well. uncle ivan, sx and i managed to play 6 holes today.
and gosh was i playing like a cow!
*slaps myself hard*
so neither of us won his bet of a sleeve of titleist balls.
haha.. we wouldnt take it anyway..
he's so nice and funny. haha..
he just rocks la (=
he went with us to melbourne too.
such a great help.
too bad i wasnt riding in his car.
i was in dr khoo's car all the time.
we rented 2 MPVs you see..
and we had groups -.-
ahas. i love JJ's songs.
esp yi qian nian yi hou, wu jin de si nian and tu ran lei le.
hmm.tomorrow-training in the morninggrandparents'(mum) niche in afternoon and worship prac after that.thinking of visiting my (dad) grandparents afterthat.it's been ages since i saw my grandma.at least i see my granpa in church.but we hardly talk..hmm. i wonder how he is.i dont wanna regret when she dies.cos i really love her so (:but she doesnt even know about me,cos i'm not usually free to eat with her.and i miss her care.take out the nags though. =P hahasshe looked after me when i was young..so now it's my turn! i'll try my best.. yupp! and not let her down.she's always worrying for me.i'll make her proud of me.my cute lil' grandma, according to lydia.hahas..actually, i dont know why i've to make my life so complicated.why is it that i have such big dreamswhy must i be the one making it bigwhhye..talking about dreams. i had one last night.it was freaking strange and i was kinda terrorized when i woke up.the scenario: me with other singaporeans in this big ballroom, supposed to have dinner.then the jap/british soldiers were outside making hell of a killing scene.and we were their next target. so i locked the door tightly.yes so obviously.. try putting yourself in my shoes, imagien what's going through your mind..i thought of my loved ones.oh no.. i havent told them what i really felt about them,how i really love them?and i was in such a state of regret.cos i knew i was gonna die eventually.it's a history lesson come true.enjoy.
and that's the story of the heart; at
10:20 PM
im at a sudden lost for words.'ve been thinking so much, especially ever since yesterday..cant get you off my mind baby.sigh..i miss your voice, i miss your everything.guess a lot has changed over these recent weeks..for the better or not, im not certain.im so confused at this point in time,really dont know what i want in life.at least i used to know.. but now im just, lost.perhaps it's the people around me that's moulding my perspective.it's like.. oh are you free? no, i have golf.and that's the case 85% of the time la.sigh. at least now, i see some hope in the program that's gonna be set up for next year, with more goals and plans. it's gonna work, im gonna improve more than ever.it's gonna be the best training from when i entered slga.next week onwards it's training from mon-fri.wanna know the schedule?wake up at 545, go run at 645, at Bedok reservoir.. hmm.with Said! at least he's running with us. hahathen have breakfast,and then head down to laguna for a round of golf..followed by training till about 6pm.erm, that's not inclusive of my own training.like swimming, gym etc. ohwell. so the schedule i came up with for myself is gone to waste.hahas. it's okay i guess. i hope this schedule is better..at least it includes the mental, physical and most aspects of.. golf.interesting.. it's kinda pointless talking to someone who knows nuts about golf.woops =X that means, you guys! hahaat least there's no training on weekends.BUT, i still have training on sat mornings. hahathen i'll go for a swim or something.eeks. i kinda hate myself.for whatever reason..hmm. i gotta go let go on the piano later..and write my diary.oh yeah. i actually managed to run 5.1 km in 1/2 hour yesterday!after such a long time of lay off.. not bad!ran with sx in the gym. lol doing it again tomorrow.we gotta do well for the marathon! ahhs. talking about that. i really dread december.because there's A math test. on the 1st.gosh guess what? i havent even opened my book.or flipped a single page of anything.God bless me..perhaps i'll just drop A math.even though it's kinda essential and useful.i shall stick to my liking and stop getting restrained because of what others think.that's a weak point in me.unless i choose to be stuck up and pissed.i guess things have been better with my parents,at least i think i control my temper better these days,especially after the melbourne trip.. taught me to respect everything.hmm. i really wanna go full into golf.but not really getting full support from anyone,namely my parents and friends..sigh-well. uncle ivan, sx and i managed to play 6 holes today.
and gosh was i playing like a cow!
*slaps myself hard*
so neither of us won his bet of a sleeve of titleist balls.
haha.. we wouldnt take it anyway..
he's so nice and funny. haha..
he just rocks la (=
he went with us to melbourne too.
such a great help.
too bad i wasnt riding in his car.
i was in dr khoo's car all the time.
we rented 2 MPVs you see..
and we had groups -.-
ahas. i love JJ's songs.
esp yi qian nian yi hou, wu jin de si nian and tu ran lei le.
hmm.tomorrow-training in the morninggrandparents'(mum) niche in afternoon and worship prac after that.thinking of visiting my (dad) grandparents afterthat.it's been ages since i saw my grandma.at least i see my granpa in church.but we hardly talk..hmm. i wonder how he is.i dont wanna regret when she dies.cos i really love her so (:but she doesnt even know about me,cos i'm not usually free to eat with her.and i miss her care.take out the nags though. =P hahasshe looked after me when i was young..so now it's my turn! i'll try my best.. yupp! and not let her down.she's always worrying for me.i'll make her proud of me.my cute lil' grandma, according to lydia.hahas..actually, i dont know why i've to make my life so complicated.why is it that i have such big dreamswhy must i be the one making it bigwhhye..talking about dreams. i had one last night.it was freaking strange and i was kinda terrorized when i woke up.the scenario: me with other singaporeans in this big ballroom, supposed to have dinner.then the jap/british soldiers were outside making hell of a killing scene.and we were their next target. so i locked the door tightly.yes so obviously.. try putting yourself in my shoes, imagien what's going through your mind..i thought of my loved ones.oh no.. i havent told them what i really felt about them,how i really love them?and i was in such a state of regret.cos i knew i was gonna die eventually.it's a history lesson come true.enjoy.
and the story ends like this; at
10:20 PM
