i tried to tell you how i was,but obviously, unfortunately, to no avail.cant blame you eithercos it's.. my problem.oh well. thank God i met ken and nico (:oh yes so we catwalked for 2 nights. for fila darn larh. so now i'm called the fila girl -.-yucks. sigh- so irritating. perhaps i'm just emotionalvery-why must i be so vulnerable and weak at this point in time..not when i'm leaving for a tournament.as HE said. if i dont perform... that stupid line kept playing in my head time and again.i now kinda regret being sponsored by him. i wanna stop getting sponsored.like what the hell larh. you are just like my parents. no, even worse.i'll just make you regret what you just said larh. and you know what, you just freaking spoiled my entire day after speaking to you. really.after i spoke to you, any song i listened too could make me cry, anything the least unintentional to hurt me hurts me. yes so my tears fought a battle with my eyes and ended up losing.sigh.really felt so down just now.never as down as before.oh well.you dont know how much i wanted you to be there.you dont know how much of me wanted to cry.you didnt even care.cos you couldnt sense anything wrong.and didnt bother to care.anyway.life sucks.demi's got food poisoning cos of the stupid food in java.and so she's not going for indonesia ladies' open.the one i'm going tomorrow.oh darn. so ginger's not going too.how sucky can life get.if not for them i wouldnt want to go.cos i would rather study.oh yes. i'm sharing room with team manager marvane.for a change. at least.meeting was funny just now.going with su ann,mel,bee,lala,sx,the bra and me!it's almost 12 and i havent finished packing.you know, somehow, sometimes, i wish i could just die in indonesia since it's so dangerous and all. seriously.. i just feel like giving up.in so many aspects of my life i always felt like giving up.i dont know what's pulling me back.perhaps it's just my pride.if you see hope, do not give up.
and that's the story of the heart; at
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i tried to tell you how i was,but obviously, unfortunately, to no avail.cant blame you eithercos it's.. my problem.oh well. thank God i met ken and nico (:oh yes so we catwalked for 2 nights. for fila darn larh. so now i'm called the fila girl -.-yucks. sigh- so irritating. perhaps i'm just emotionalvery-why must i be so vulnerable and weak at this point in time..not when i'm leaving for a tournament.as HE said. if i dont perform... that stupid line kept playing in my head time and again.i now kinda regret being sponsored by him. i wanna stop getting sponsored.like what the hell larh. you are just like my parents. no, even worse.i'll just make you regret what you just said larh. and you know what, you just freaking spoiled my entire day after speaking to you. really.after i spoke to you, any song i listened too could make me cry, anything the least unintentional to hurt me hurts me. yes so my tears fought a battle with my eyes and ended up losing.sigh.really felt so down just now.never as down as before.oh well.you dont know how much i wanted you to be there.you dont know how much of me wanted to cry.you didnt even care.cos you couldnt sense anything wrong.and didnt bother to care.anyway.life sucks.demi's got food poisoning cos of the stupid food in java.and so she's not going for indonesia ladies' open.the one i'm going tomorrow.oh darn. so ginger's not going too.how sucky can life get.if not for them i wouldnt want to go.cos i would rather study.oh yes. i'm sharing room with team manager marvane.for a change. at least.meeting was funny just now.going with su ann,mel,bee,lala,sx,the bra and me!it's almost 12 and i havent finished packing.you know, somehow, sometimes, i wish i could just die in indonesia since it's so dangerous and all. seriously.. i just feel like giving up.in so many aspects of my life i always felt like giving up.i dont know what's pulling me back.perhaps it's just my pride.if you see hope, do not give up.
and the story ends like this; at
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