dont know why my life is such.so sucky as it is already,but things happening are making it worse, really.to a point where i really hate everything.i wish a car would bang me down and i could die.i know it's stupid, but this is just how i'm feeling right now.grr. i just need someone to share with.too bad i just know you wont be there.sigh-wondering why in the world i've become like that.so concerned about almost everything i'm involved in.perhaps i'm just a perfectionist. bleh. where are you? shit larhs. tell me it's over.i dont wanna be the last to know,i'll be the first to go.haiyas. i realised it's very hard to sustain it.but i did try very hard the last time.not anymore? i dont know.not much chances i guess. just like char told me. when your friends tell you something,it shows what kinda friend you are to him/her.i really dont know larh. but i think i know who would be there fer me consistently, always.sha, char, chu? *shruggs.sigh. so many things have changed between the 2 of us. fer the worse i guess. maybe for the better. if that's God's will larh. sigh.booyah. bet you dont know how i'm feeling right?i really want things to be like last time,so carefree.and when i knew so many people cared fer me,or at least they tried to :(dont think it's this way now though.sigh- i really hate it when people dont mean what they say. and in the end they all turn out to be lies.the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak.i wonder how people can lead happy lives. i really do.putting on a brave front just to trick youinto thinking i'm alright.sigh. i think i havent been putting my life straight into God's arms, that's why. the problem is that, i always fail and drift.and i have to admit it isnt easy always putting your trust in God, it just seems the wrong way to you sometimes. i have gotta learn to put Him first in my life, and believe that whatever happens is all His will. it would be very hard though. sigh-the world is changing. life's getting more complicated.who would remain the same?God would.although everything else would just fade and go away.at least, we christians still have God.sigh perhaps this would be a life-turning experience fer me.to change and follow Him. in His footsteps.i just gotta trust Him.empty spaces fill me up with holes distant faces with no place left to gowithout you within me i cant find no rest where i'm going is anybody's guessi've tried to go on like i never knew you i'm awake but my world is half asleep i pray for this heart to be unbroken but without you all i'm going to be isincomplete voices tell me i should carry on but i am swimming in an ocean all alone baby, my baby it's written on your face you still wonder if we made a big mistakei dont mean to drag it on, but it seems i cant seem to let you go.my point of view:people search fer guys and girls in their lives,so that they can confide in them and find love.because this world is full of deceit.youngsters club and play pool, smoke, drugs,all to hope that it would take away their pain.
and that's the story of the heart; at
12:25 AM
dont know why my life is such.so sucky as it is already,but things happening are making it worse, really.to a point where i really hate everything.i wish a car would bang me down and i could die.i know it's stupid, but this is just how i'm feeling right now.grr. i just need someone to share with.too bad i just know you wont be there.sigh-wondering why in the world i've become like that.so concerned about almost everything i'm involved in.perhaps i'm just a perfectionist. bleh. where are you? shit larhs. tell me it's over.i dont wanna be the last to know,i'll be the first to go.haiyas. i realised it's very hard to sustain it.but i did try very hard the last time.not anymore? i dont know.not much chances i guess. just like char told me. when your friends tell you something,it shows what kinda friend you are to him/her.i really dont know larh. but i think i know who would be there fer me consistently, always.sha, char, chu? *shruggs.sigh. so many things have changed between the 2 of us. fer the worse i guess. maybe for the better. if that's God's will larh. sigh.booyah. bet you dont know how i'm feeling right?i really want things to be like last time,so carefree.and when i knew so many people cared fer me,or at least they tried to :(dont think it's this way now though.sigh- i really hate it when people dont mean what they say. and in the end they all turn out to be lies.the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak.i wonder how people can lead happy lives. i really do.putting on a brave front just to trick youinto thinking i'm alright.sigh. i think i havent been putting my life straight into God's arms, that's why. the problem is that, i always fail and drift.and i have to admit it isnt easy always putting your trust in God, it just seems the wrong way to you sometimes. i have gotta learn to put Him first in my life, and believe that whatever happens is all His will. it would be very hard though. sigh-the world is changing. life's getting more complicated.who would remain the same?God would.although everything else would just fade and go away.at least, we christians still have God.sigh perhaps this would be a life-turning experience fer me.to change and follow Him. in His footsteps.i just gotta trust Him.empty spaces fill me up with holes distant faces with no place left to gowithout you within me i cant find no rest where i'm going is anybody's guessi've tried to go on like i never knew you i'm awake but my world is half asleep i pray for this heart to be unbroken but without you all i'm going to be isincomplete voices tell me i should carry on but i am swimming in an ocean all alone baby, my baby it's written on your face you still wonder if we made a big mistakei dont mean to drag it on, but it seems i cant seem to let you go.my point of view:people search fer guys and girls in their lives,so that they can confide in them and find love.because this world is full of deceit.youngsters club and play pool, smoke, drugs,all to hope that it would take away their pain.
and the story ends like this; at
12:25 AM
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