am not feeling much feelings now. not yet emotional.
just kinda thinking of myself, and my friends.
i try hard not to think of you
hehs. like i said, i didnt go to school today, or rather there wasnt school fer me.
yea i slept at like 1 plus last night, watching MTV.
i dont know what kept me awake.
perhaps it was because i was thinking, of you?
it has always been troubling me.
but well, you dont even care.
so why should i continue?
it's a 2 way thing.
argh. it is always heart wrenching fer me to talk about this.
post after post. day after day.
time seems to past ever so slowly and solemnly.
you still do nothin` bout it.
i'll let you chose what you want to do.
go have fun with your other friends.
Leave me in the lurch.
it's fine with me
well.
went to the gym today..
to let off some steam.
then headed fer MEp.
damn it.
wasted my one hour there.
waiting fer my parents to come
cos there wasnt 2nd lesson today.
teacher didnt come.
and didnt even tell us.
wth.
but at least it's a breather fer me, on a wednesday.
if not it would have ended at like 6.30?
heh.. Samsung Ladies' open starting tomorrow.
kinda excited.
i wanna go down to see them.
too bad Anika's not coming.
but i guess lady golfers are pretty crappy.
all their swing and stuff, kinda unprofessional still.
well, what stand do i have to say all these?
i'm just another person in the golfing world?
yea, just another person . sigh
wahah... went grocery shopping with my dad. lol.
dad? hahas yea. mum wasnt around.
how sad. anyways. yea.
communication with him is starting to get better.
ever since i start to take note of my temper and all.
i'm always impatient with them.
sorry dad and mum..
you gotta help me get rid of that.
however mum is still impatient whenever she talks.
my blood usually boils whenever i talk to them.
but i have to learn to be grateful fer them,
and what they have done fer me.
secretly encouraging me all these years.
ever since i entered the National squad and all.
until now, about pursuing the music world..
sigh. i have truly let them down.
in actual fact,
i have let everyone down.
i'm such an outcast.
well,
that's me.
feeling kinda exhausted.
nothing seems to excite me anymore..
nothing.
why is this so?
feelings have been lost,
and are waiting to be felt again
specially written to you, fer you.
eversince you `left` me,
life has been horrible.
the thought of you,
wells up my eyes.
i truly cherish you all my life,
but, is this what i get?
whatever you do makes me concerned.
while i sit there and ponder,
you continue to lead your care-free life.with your friends
life without me.
has it been more meaningful and fulfilling?
i guess it is so.
the things you said to me,
keep playing in my head,
like lyrics of a song.
i really wonder, and think to myself.
what on earth have i done?
am i not worthy of you, or anyone else?
perhaps.<.u>
*thinkin of you, listening to the song that recalls fond memories of me and you, we once shared.`*`
meandyou
****** foreva.
imissyou
and that's the story of the heart; at
10:22 PM
am not feeling much feelings now. not yet emotional.
just kinda thinking of myself, and my friends.
i try hard not to think of you
hehs. like i said, i didnt go to school today, or rather there wasnt school fer me.
yea i slept at like 1 plus last night, watching MTV.
i dont know what kept me awake.
perhaps it was because i was thinking, of you?
it has always been troubling me.
but well, you dont even care.
so why should i continue?
it's a 2 way thing.
argh. it is always heart wrenching fer me to talk about this.
post after post. day after day.
time seems to past ever so slowly and solemnly.
you still do nothin` bout it.
i'll let you chose what you want to do.
go have fun with your other friends.
Leave me in the lurch.
it's fine with me
well.
went to the gym today..
to let off some steam.
then headed fer MEp.
damn it.
wasted my one hour there.
waiting fer my parents to come
cos there wasnt 2nd lesson today.
teacher didnt come.
and didnt even tell us.
wth.
but at least it's a breather fer me, on a wednesday.
if not it would have ended at like 6.30?
heh.. Samsung Ladies' open starting tomorrow.
kinda excited.
i wanna go down to see them.
too bad Anika's not coming.
but i guess lady golfers are pretty crappy.
all their swing and stuff, kinda unprofessional still.
well, what stand do i have to say all these?
i'm just another person in the golfing world?
yea, just another person . sigh
wahah... went grocery shopping with my dad. lol.
dad? hahas yea. mum wasnt around.
how sad. anyways. yea.
communication with him is starting to get better.
ever since i start to take note of my temper and all.
i'm always impatient with them.
sorry dad and mum..
you gotta help me get rid of that.
however mum is still impatient whenever she talks.
my blood usually boils whenever i talk to them.
but i have to learn to be grateful fer them,
and what they have done fer me.
secretly encouraging me all these years.
ever since i entered the National squad and all.
until now, about pursuing the music world..
sigh. i have truly let them down.
in actual fact,
i have let everyone down.
i'm such an outcast.
well,
that's me.
feeling kinda exhausted.
nothing seems to excite me anymore..
nothing.
why is this so?
feelings have been lost,
and are waiting to be felt again
specially written to you, fer you.
eversince you `left` me,
life has been horrible.
the thought of you,
wells up my eyes.
i truly cherish you all my life,
but, is this what i get?
whatever you do makes me concerned.
while i sit there and ponder,
you continue to lead your care-free life.with your friends
life without me.
has it been more meaningful and fulfilling?
i guess it is so.
the things you said to me,
keep playing in my head,
like lyrics of a song.
i really wonder, and think to myself.
what on earth have i done?
am i not worthy of you, or anyone else?
perhaps.<.u>
*thinkin of you, listening to the song that recalls fond memories of me and you, we once shared.`*`
meandyou
****** foreva.
imissyou
and the story ends like this; at
10:22 PM
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